I fell for two different guys in high school. I don’t know how that happened. I was shy as a post, and boring. I had some dates, but they didn’t turn out right. My high school steady broke up with me right before the prom. He took me, and then disappeared. I think he didn’t want to go with someone who was headed for Africa as a missionary. I thought I would be going there. I didn’t. I married a preacher instead. I taught 19 out of 20 years in the intercity, with American black children. I loved them, and they loved me. They ran over me, but they were wonderful, creative, energetic, and a delight most of the time to teach.
The first guy I went steady with put up with my shyness. We were going steady before I knew it. Eventually I broke up with him, because he had a bad reputation,,,,for some reason. For me, he was always a wonderful, nice guy. I broke up, and cried all afternoon. I didn’t see much of him after that. I think a reputation of someone should not have been what prodded my mother to say, “Break up with him now.”
I did. I always obeyed, and I cried for a while. I didn’t date until my Senior year. Then I met someone else, and we dated for some time. He found that I was going to the mission field. He drew a beer can in his annual, and I signed something. He didn’t want to be associated with a missionary. We broke up.
I didn’t go to Africa, and I married a preacher. It was fine with God,,,,as far as I know. I taught Black American children for almost twenty years. The other group was all white. They were fine, but I enjoyed teaching because the children I taught we always learning, and so creative at times. They were way behind in their studies, because they had not settled into learning. That is where I came into the picture. I settled them, and gave them parties, and treats for hard work. We had movies for hard work also. I motivated them. Motivation was one of my strong points in teaching.
About going steady…….I am sure these young men had dreams of their own that they reached. I am sure they made wonderful husbands eventually. I never forgot them, because we became close. I cold talk to them, one at a time, but I could talk. One didn’t know I could talk. The other knew, and he was reaching for the stars. I am sure he got there without me.
That is my story about high school. Everyone knew me, but I was shy as a post, and I hardly talked. I believe it was an inherited trait. I am glad I was shy. I was headed for school teaching, and for being a minister’s wife. I am not shy now, and I do speak when someone wants an answer. I love to carry a good conversation when someone realizes there is worth under my hat.
I wore my hat today. I don’t know why. I was the only one in a crowded Easter service. It was crowded for us. We had a program, and people came to see their kin perform. That is what to do to gain attendance. I do believe God gives wisdom. I am glad that I finally went through college, and was bold enough to major in Education. I wasn’t suppose to be a missionary. Yet, when I write, I see the map of how many countries I am reaching. The other day it showed that I was reaching 67 countries. So I am a missionary in that sense. That is little ole me………who never spoke from 7th grade through high school. I was shy as a post. So what happened?
Well, someone prayed over me in a line of people who had come forward. We stood until the man of God got to us. I didn’t fall down, but he rebuked a spirit of intimidation off me. I have changed gradually, and my friends now would never say that I am shy. I talk so much that Ed has to say, “Ruby, you are talking too much!”
So see, I have changed. God changed my dad when he became a Christian. He was shy as a post, also. I believe in the goodness of the Lord. I believe one day God said, “She is unshackled from now on.”
Then the man of God rebuked the intimidation. I was set free. I didn’t write like this before I started writing on Rubies Corner. It just comes. That is God, and I give Him the praise right now. This lady has changed. Do I hear a shout? Someone needs to say, “Glory to God! Ruby is set free from what has imprisoned her all her life. Intimidation is gone………WOW!”