When you write out what is bothering you, don’t leave it for others to read. Express yourself fully, and honestly, and get the good, and the ugly thoughts out on the page. I don’t swear. I write from my heart all that hurts, and all that stings from the situation that I have come from that moment. It may be half a page of writing, or less. Then it might be two pages, but I am not showing this to others. I am writing it for myself. When I am finished, I read it, and give it back to God. I tell Him my thoughts and feelings about the matter. I am there maybe ten minutes, but when I am through, I tear those pages of words into tiny bits. I throw them in the trash, or it is better to burn them. I rarely if ever do that.
The result of this is the great relief that all those feelings, hurts, and responses are now on the bits of paper. I made sure no one would put those back together. It would take time. It is a private conversation with God, but the writing helped to get those thoughts out of my heart, mind, and spirit. I have done this for years, and I have clarity later. I might repent more because I know that my anger doesn’t confirm that I am righteous. It is there for good reason.
In doing this I find great relief. If you are depressed, and you know it, you can get those feeling down on paper. Give them to God, and then tear the pages up. I believe Satan tries us, and self in others comes at us at our vulnerable points. When we have to become angry, we are guilty at times. Anger doesn’t show the righteousness of God in us. It can be controlling. I think getting what we are angry about is therapy. It is therapeutic.
People don’t like to listen to our whining, but at times it is necessary for others to hear how we really feel. I rarely say so. There is no greater Friend that Jesus Christ who died for you and me and rose again. He really cares. God cares, and Jesus is the Son of God. The Holy Spirit draws us to Christ.
I believe when we get through with the writing out of our offenses, and attitudes, that the best thing is to say, “This is how I really feel, Father. Cleanse me now by the blood of Jesus Christ. Take these thoughts, and attitudes, and make me into a quiet, agreeable person who loves you with her/his whole heart. Forgive me for holding all this inside me, and not talking to You about it. I ask for freedom, and healing now, in Jesus name.”
Then tear up the paper, throw it in the trash can, and walk away from it. Make sure it stays there and is emptied into the trash can in a bag with a tie on it. I believe this is one way of releasing the burden, and walking in repentance that is whole, clean, and complete. When the people come to mind, practice forgiveness, and you will see that Satan doesn’t bring that person to you again and again. You are forgiven, and you are set free.