I had a confrontation with someone and I have been chewing on this old rag for the rest of this week. It hit me like a ton of brick expectantly. It hurt, and this person knows better. Satan got in there and soon I was saying my piece back, but the ordeal is still bothering me. This is too long to chew the same rag. I give it up, in Jesus name. I don’t want to be offended any longer. So I have prayed that to the Lord. I will be talking to the person tomorrow, and I will not be offended again. God will help me this time.
Letting go is not hard. I was lambasted with words, and I stood up for myself. It did internal, spiritual damage. That is a shame. Much has happened since those words came. I have been writing, staying at home, and praying about this matter to get it off of me. I am open to the Holy Spirit, and I try to walk in the spirit of God, but this hurt, wounded, and had its way of making me mad. It is alright to get angry, but the anger I saw in his eyes was there for a long time. I just didn’t know that he was so angry.
I am holding my tongue now, and binding the enemy. I am praying, and trying not to verbally talk about it around the family. After a while they tire of the same thing, second verse. I am not used to confrontation, disorder, and being told-off in Jesus name. Can you tell I still hate what happened? I will get over this. I couldn’t forgive that day. I went through motions, but it was still hanging in the air around me. I was offended, upset, angry, and felt this was unrighteous anger coming at me. It was an attack to keep me from praying about something.
I usually spend three days at the church praying. I haven’t been praying at the church this week. I must be there three days……….and hopefully without someone getting angry with me. I think he got it all said, and out that night. I had no idea he had such anger. He won’t be riding with me. He can ride with Isaac or Ed. It’s awful how satan gets in where he shouldn’t. He speaks through anyone. I hope you don’t have a confrontation with someone like I did. If you do, I hope you speak up and don’t stand there and take it.
Ed goes to court with someone tomorrow. I won’t see him until the service starts. I usually am at the church early to pray, paint, or sit before the Lord. I’ll be doing that at home. This matter will clear, but I don’t want to give the devil a chance to hit me again. The weapons of my warfare are mighty in God to pull down the strongholds. I am praying. I am confessing my sins. I am seeking and praying. This was not right, and I said so during the confrontation. I have not been in one of these for thirty years. You see the seriousness of it. I felt my words were of no effect, but I stood up for myself anyway.
Usually this person is right on, but this time he had anger to go with it. That is what made me back off and fight. I hate anger. It destroys, and tries to get its way. Something is coming that is important. I am bending my knees to Christ and seeking Him. Surely He will tell me what really was happening during this terrible confrontation. I really hated having to be so bold with someone who usually is peaceful and full of the Lord. It was out of character. This is why I think Satan had a whole lot to do with this . I am praying for wisdom. It seems that the church is under attack, and I got hit, Isaac got stopped by the police two times for speeding, a friend had a near-death experience, and it seems like Satan is afraid of our prayers. He is trying his best to keep the place in confusion.
Father in Jesus name I forgive this person for offending me, and telling me all this junk that should have never been brought up. I ask that you would forgive me for mulling over it. I need forgiveness for standing there in defense. I should have walked out. Anyone else would have. I let go of this offense in Jesus name. I forgive this man. I ask for the blood of Jesus to cover him, and me. I ask that the next conversation would be one with more wisdom, and much humility. In Jesus name